Why I Decided to Do the Inner Work? Why Now?

Because I got tired of performing.
Tired of feeling like I had to “hold it all together” on the outside,
while quietly falling apart inside.

Because success didn’t feel like success anymore.
Because being productive wasn’t the same as being at peace.
Because I was constantly seeking external validation
to soothe an internal emptiness.

I started noticing the patterns —
how I would avoid discomfort, shrink around others, or over-give to feel worthy.
And the truth hit me hard:
No amount of achieving was going to heal what I refused to feel.

So I stopped running.
And I chose to turn inward.

It wasn’t glamorous.
It wasn’t linear.
But it was honest.

I started doing the inner work not because I was broken —
but because I finally believed I deserved to feel whole.
To know myself.
To trust myself.
To live from alignment, not expectation.

That decision changed everything.

Not all at once.
But slowly, quietly, deeply.

And every time I return to the work,
I meet a deeper, freer version of me.

This is why I do it.
Not to be perfect but to be real.

So, why now?

Because I am done waiting for the perfect moment.
Because clarity won’t come from overthinking only from choosing.
Because the longer I delay, the longer I stay disconnected from the version of me I know I am meant to become.

Because I am no longer available for living on autopilot.

This is the moment.
Not because it’s ideal but because it’s true.

And truth is a beautiful place to begin.